Showing posts with label chronic illness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label chronic illness. Show all posts

Friday, April 22, 2022

Baromeric Pressure Madness?

 Today, I've had pain behind my eyes and on the shunt valve with a side of nausea from the distal catheter in my stomach. My shunt is making adjustments again, while responding to the barometric pressure changes, phases of the moon, satellites, weather and who knows what else is in the atmosphere. 

I know of other people who also have pain and other issues from the weather. It's nice to know there are many others out there who can relate to weather related pain issues. As the weather gets warmer, I just know my unruly shunt will rebel again. As long as it continues to work and I don't have to have surgery again.

That is all I want. 

To never have surgery again. 

 Pain behind my eyes again today (4/22) with a side of dizziness and pain the back of head. Most likely this is from the chiari malformation. The good news is, I'm not nauseous today from the distal catheter...

No Nintendo therapy today because of pain behind my right eye. So, instead I'm listening to music.

Saturday, March 19, 2022

fog and then some

 The ice storm last weekend left me with chronic pain from both my head and cerebral shunt. Today there's pressure in my forehead and pain on the shunt valve. The fog yesterday and earlier today only added to the pain issues. The walking issues have returned briefly this week with my right leg crossing over my left leg. I've become better at paying attention to this, as I can stop myself from falling forward.  

 This afternoon, I feel pain on the shunt valve, pressure in my forehead and pain behind my right eye. 

 The right eye pain is an improvement from last week, when I had pain behind both eyes.  

I managed to get some drawing done today which was a huge improvement from last weekend, where I couldn't do anything because I was uncomfortable. 

I met with my local brain injury recreation group this week. It's always nice to be around others who understand what it's like to have a shunt, chronic pain and other issues associated with living with a brain injury.


Sunday, November 21, 2021

7

Today is the first day in seven days where I don't have:

Pain from the shunt valve

Pain on the side of my head 

Pain in the back of my head from the chiari malformation

Nausea from the distal catheter in my stomach

Pain behind both eyes and when blinking

Occasional eye misalignment 

TMJ issues with a side of knocking inside my head from my inner right ear to my left ear. 

The pain medication (Curamin, CBD or Advil) I use in my attempts to cope with chronic pain from my injuries in 2014 and from my programmable shunt valve.  Sometimes these things works, other times like the last week, did not do anything to alleviate my pain. 

It made me sad and angry. 

There is no way of knowing what the shunt is doing. I'm just one of many people who have a shunt in my brain and we just don't know when they will become obstructed again or become infected or fall apart. I suspect this week it was responding to the weather and barometric pressure such as the upcoming rain and there's some sort of storm approaching from the West coast. There was also a partial lunar eclipse this week.

Millions of children and adults with all types of medical devices including programmable shunts experience similar or the same symptoms when these these things occur in the atmosphere. 

Last night, the pain was bothering even after taking pain reliever and I was able to play some video games like Super Mario Brothers 2.  

The first thing that brought a smile to my face this week despite chronic pain issues was the early sight of brown Santa Claus.  It's wonderful to see different representations of Santa decorations. 

The second was music from Ghostbusters 2.

I have had one good day this week to enjoy before my shunt decides to become unruly again whenever that may be. 

Monday, October 11, 2021

One week special

 For about a week, I've had pain on the shunt valve, pain along the distal catheter down into the side of my neck and some nausea from the distal catheter in my stomach. It seems the shunt was making some sort of adjustment, this time without beeping sounds. I also had elevated csf pressure in my forehead, pain behind both eyes and pain on the top left side of my scalp. I believe as I've mentioned in previous posts, that the nerve issues I have on the top left corner of my scalp could be 'phantom limb' issues from my injuries in 2014. 

I went to my local Brain Injury Awareness walk which was in person this year. Last year, because of the pandemic, it was virtual only.  It was wonderful to be around the many people impacted by brain injury.

Yesterday, I had chiari headaches in the back of my head and it's continued into today. There's also been the occasional ringing in my right ear that travels throughout the center of head. I took pain medication this morning which has helped  a little with the pain, although I feel dizzy in the back of my head.  Tomorrow will be better.

Monday, September 20, 2021

shifting eyes and walking

 My shunt's been behaving itself the last few days. No pain from the valve, distal catheter and no pain from different parts of my scalp and sides of my head. Today, my right eye misaligned a few times in the evening. Besides having minimal to no shunt pain this weekend, I enjoyed this song from The Lego Batman movie, the music and the video together just makes me smile. 

Wednesday, September 1, 2021

In September...

It's September and that means is is Hydrocephalus Awareness month.   I made a film about my own brain injuries while having shunt revision surgery in March 2014. My story is just one of many people who live with hydrocephalus.  I started filming in 2013 because I knew something was wrong with my shunt and I figured making a short film about what I was going through would be a way to spread awareness about hydrocephalus. In 2014, after I had multiple brain injuries while having shunt revision surgery, I decided to keep filming while I was in rehab.

For the month of September My film, Shunt Chronicles, my brain, art and school can be viewed online:  Shunt Chronicles on Youtube



Saturday, August 21, 2021

3am on Wednesday

 

Millions of children, adults and families living with a cerebral shunt because of hydrocephalus spend a lot of time walking on egg shells because you never know when a shunt will become obstructed and stop working. Or in other cases become infected or fall apart inside the body.

Earlier this week, Wednesday morning around 3am, I found myself vomiting on my bedroom floor followed by sitting on the edge of my bed thinking about my symptoms and worried it might be my shunt failing.  

I realized later that it was an episode of what I now know was food poisoning.

During the early morning hours of August 18, I had to assess whether or not it was shunt failure.

I had vomiting….

I didn’t have any of the following:

Severe shunt pain,

My head wasn’t stuck in a downward position and my eyes weren’t sun setting… or turned downward

No gaited walk and my right eye wasn’t forced to close due to the buildup of cerebral spinal fluid inside my skull.

Around 4am, I sat on my bathroom floor waiting to vomit again. When that didn’t happen, I went back to bed.

It’s situations like this when I wish we had better technology to detect when a shunt will stop working.

I mean they have a device, the dexcom for people with diabetes that tells them what their glucose levels are. They can use their phone to read these levels.

We can do almost anything with our phones now.

Why can’t something be done that’s similar with these programmable shunt valves?! I mean I would think you’d be able to at least order takeout food or pick up on a few radio stations with this ‘advanced technology’ inside my brain.

They’ve used the same technology (with some improvements) since the invention of the shunt in 1956.

Not much has changed in terms of treatment.

At least I’m one of many who continue to be frustrated…

I know when my car needs an oil change every 3,000 miles.

I know when certain foods/beverages expire in my refrigerator or cabinet because they have expiration dates on them.

I don’t know when the programmable shunt valve in my brain will become obstructed and stop working.

CT scans and x Rays are used to determine whether shunts are working properly. Sometimes these things are accurate, other times, they are not.

My shunt in 2014 fell apart inside my body and was leaking out into my abdomen and all down the side of my neck internally.

Tests were done and nothing could be determined until I insisted on surgery because it was obvious to me something was wrong despite the technology saying otherwise.

We need to do better. We need Star Trek level technology NOW for individuals and families living with hydrocephalus this way we can all manage our symptoms better. 

The good news is my shunt behaved itself today and I was able to go out for a walk before the incoming hurricane….

And I heard this Journey song today which made me smile and brought back memories of when I was living in Mississippi while serving in AmeriCorps NCCC. We had a music contest and this song was one of the songs on our playlist.

 

 

 

 

Saturday, August 7, 2021

Flamingo Saturdays

Millions of people who have cerebral shunts and/or brain injury or both have chronic pain symptoms often for life. Today Saturday, this morning at around 8:03am I had sharp pains from my shunt valve. What I usually use for pain relief where it be tumeric or advil, it works to reduce the pain sometimes and other times, it doesn't work like more recently. Occasional episodes of nerve pain on the top left side of my scalp. That hasn't happened for a while now like a few months. This week I've had the return of the following - dizziness and elevated csf pressure in my forehead and eye pain behind my right eye in addition to pain behind both eyes. While standing up on Thursday,  I had scissoring issues and my right leg crossed over my left leg...I caught myself from almost falling. I've also had episodes this week of TMJ, Tinnitus and vertigo and the return of the chiari malformation headache in the back of my head. What makes me smile during episodes of chronic pain and shunt issues is my new flamingo friend.

This furry friend is from Build A Bear workshop. The whimsical nature of this stuffed animal brings a smile to my face an joy to my heart especially when my shunt is unruly and I have other chronic pain issues.

 

Wednesday, July 21, 2021

going on 5

This is the 5th day I've not had shunt pain and chronic head pain. This hasn't happened for months. No pain behind my right eye, which I learned is not from my strabismus surgery in 2015, it's from my injuries in 2014. During these days I've had TMJ and walking/balance issues. For now, I'm going to enjoy not wanting to remove my shunt from my brain and recycle it. This week has been a happy week which includes returning to art and movie marathons....

Sunday, April 25, 2021

Let's Draw part I

 When it's raining outside and I have chronic pain, I draw rainbows because they make me feel better. 

Step 1: Draw curvy lines to create side of cloud.

Step 2: Close lines creating first cloud.


Step 3: Begin drawing 2nd cloud. 

Step 4; Continue drawing outline for 2nd cloud.

Step 5: Close lines. Now we have two clouds.
 
Step 6: Begin drawing rainbow lines
Step 7: Close rainbow lines and
darken pencil lines with pens,
markers or colored pencil.  

Step 8: Color in rainbow and clouds
using markers, colored pencils


I didn't include all the colors of the rainbow in this drawing. Sometimes I leave them out or I include all of the colors. This usually depends on the length between clouds which usually determines the number of lines in a rainbow. I also could've add more thin lines to give the rainbow more colors. Rainbow drawings can be colored in using a variety of media even cutting colored pieces of paper and using it to fill in the colors is a good idea too. 


Friday, April 23, 2021

palm trees and metal


I've discovered a new Nintendo game, Hudson's Adventure Island II. I love characters, music, and the game play. They even have happy game over music. It's just a joy and fun to play this and a good escape from my chronic pain issues. 


My shunt has been behaving itself the last few days. I had some double vision this morning when I turned my head, occasionally my eyes become misaligned. TMJ issues today along with tinnitus. I attempted to build a puzzle over the weekend and came to realization I needed more table space. I wonder how my new brain will process constructing a puzzle. Haven't done one in years prior to my injuries. 

I was at a doctor's appointment recently and the nurse commented on my medical ID bracelet. She told me she doesn't see them very often and that it was a good idea for me to be responsible for my health. There are several places where you can purchase one here are some examples: 




Tuesday, March 9, 2021

right eye and a slice of apple

 After having a conversation with my neuro ophthalmologist last year during a check up with my right eye....He told me the pain I have occasionally behind my eye is not from my strabismus surgery in 2015, rather it's from the injuries I had in 2014. I would hope this is different in the afternoon. I was hungry around 3am this morning only to have chronic pain and hoped for like a second, that it would go away once I finished part of my apple. I've taken pain reliever this morning and yesterday....there's been little change. What makes me feel a little better...a sugar free chocolate chip cookie...

Monday, March 8, 2021

7th with tea

7th anniversary brain birthday muffin
This week ( on 3/6/21) marks seven years since surviving multiple brain injuries during a cerebral shunt revision surgery in 2014. I made a short film about my injuries a preview is available here.  I've had barometric pressure headaches and shunt pain a different times this weekend and into today. Right eye pain with pain along the distal catheter at the top of my head with some nausea. I suspect my shunt is adjusting itself today....something it does when the weather changes or if I stand up or sit down. As I do every year, I had a birthday pastry, deciding on a muffin this year with a side of tea.   

Friday, February 19, 2021

puzzles

Almost tipped over backwards this week due to balance issues. The last two days I've headaches in the back of my head (from chiari malformation). I also had a random Tinnitus episode in my right ear which hasn't happened in months. The curamin I've occasionally be taking for pain hasn't worked much in the last 48 hours. 

At least the curamin helped when I used it earlier this month. 

The barometric pressure outside is not helping. 

At least there's music, art, movies, puzzles, video games and books to distract from the chronic pain chaos.

 

Friday, February 12, 2021

And then there were vitamins

 At least today I don't feel like removing my shunt from my brain with a kitchen knife. Right eye and shunt pain was reduced by 100% when I took the vitamin curamin this morning. Yesterday, it worked for the morning and then pain returned during mid day and continued into the evening.  For now, I'm not waging a war against my shunt.

In my attempt to escape from both chronic pain and the pandemic we are all living in right now... I found two things that bring joy to my heart: music and fun commercials.

The New Adventures of Winnie the Pooh Intro & Outro - YouTube

Kia Sock Monkey Commercial - YouTube


A great escape.

Wednesday, October 21, 2020

Time to draw...

This morning, I have some nausea and headache from the chiari malformation in addition to sharp pains from the shunt valve. Time to draw....

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

6:30pm

 I noticed around last night at 6:30pm I didn't have any shunt, forehead pain. This has continued into this morning. I can move my head and I don't feel the shunt making adjustments or pain from the shunt valve. So for now, I am not a war with my programmable shunt valve. And an added bonus, no falling incidents for two weeks now.  

Wednesday, September 2, 2020

right eye rebellion

Recently, I went to my local aquarium and saw brain shaped coral which is totally appropriate for this blog and this month, as it's Hydrocephalus Awareness Month.  

Brain shaped coral at the aquarium

Visiting the aquarium was a great escape from chronic pain issues. My right eye is still adjusting to my new eyeglasses. There are times when it has drifted to the right side if my head on it's own and images split in front of both my eyes as they did when I had double vison for a year and 12 days in 2014 and 2015.  


The last three days I've had pain on the shunt valve, nausea and pain behind my right eye.  It's around 1am where I am right now and I can't sleep. I am

Myself out for a walk on 
a pain free day last month. 

 sitting by my sofa with my cat because of chronic pain issues. I've also been having sound sensitivity in my right ear. After my injuries in 2014, it caused several changes to my nervous system including TMJ and hearing issues in my right ear.  Sometimes I am sensitive to sounds, like this morning, it's raining and the sound of the rain is bothering me. 

I move my head from side to side and there's pain. It's 1:55am. 

Sunday, August 9, 2020

in purple

 Last week, I got a new pair of glasses in purple. All week, my right eye ( surgery eye ) has been rebelling and drifting occasionally to the right. Or other times, it will not align with the other eye when I move my head. The glasses are a little bigger than my previous pair. 

Chronic pain has been bad the last few days. Today has been a lot better and I saw a yellow butterfly this morning, which made me smile.

Sunday, July 19, 2020

One day this week so far....

Right eye pain, nausea, pain on sides of head and shunt valve pain for the last few weeks. Friday 7/17 there was a thunderstorm which only added to the discomfort with my medical device. No pain yesterday which was a small miracle and welcome relief.  Today I have some shunt issues with the heat and pressure in my forehead. The pandemic has made me draw more which makes me happy and distracts me even for a minute from chronic pain issues when they arise. Alternative therapies for coping with pain are great when they work. During long periods of pain I often get sad and angry.  It's a reminder of what happened to my nervous system and how things will not be the same again.  Sometimes I'm happy and grateful to have survived other times I cry because of how it's changed everything.