Saturday, September 9, 2023

in the summer

September is hydrocephalus awareness month.  During the summer, I attended a Pediatric Hydrocephalus Conference. It was great meeting other individuals and families who are living with hydrocephalus.   Always nice to talk with others who truly understand what it's like to live with this chronic illness. 

It was 10 years ago this month that I started making a short film about my shunt as it was doing some weird things inside my head. At the time, I didn't' know it was on the wrong side of my brain. I later figured this out on my own in March 2014

Whenever I talk about my brain injuries with anyone, I always emphasize how you have to listen to your gut, as it doesn't lie to you. Had I not listened to my body back in 2013 when I felt vibrations inside my head and on my spine, I would not be here. Had I not advocated for myself and insisted my neurosurgeon do surgery, I would not be here.  I later fired this doctor ( since he wasn't taking my complaints seriously ) and he got animated in my film. I always tell people if you can't advocate for yourself, then get someone else to do this on your behalf.

Like any brain injury survivor, you're just never the same afterwards. I've been having walking issues again and I'm back in physical therapy.  With chronic pain issues in my head and leg this week, I found myself again listening to movie soundtracks such as Treasure Planet (2002)Blue Beetle (2023) and Sailor Stars (1997)

Sunday, August 13, 2023


Sometimes around 11:30pm last night, I was awakened by a severe thunderstorm outside. I also had pain from:

1. The chiari malformation in the back of my head.

2. Nausea from distal cathether in stomach.

3.  Pain behind both eyes 

4. Pain from the shunt valve and distal catheter at the top of my head. 

It's been like four hours and the pain has been reduced, still lingering in the background. I'm doing this new thing where I don't take pain medication unless I really really need to.  

Not sure if I'll do nintendo therapy today, as I have pain behind my eyes.  It may be a reading and listening to movie soundtracks type of day.  Music from films like Suzume and Spider Man are in my head today.

Friday, June 30, 2023

Two weeks and water from the sky

 Since it's been raining in my area. I know I'm not the only one who experiences chronic pain issues with the changes in barometric pressure and the weather.

This week:

Pain behind right eye with needle like pain in both eyes. The feeling of having a needle being pushed inside your eye all the way into the my eye socket. 

Pain on the shunt valve with nausea from distal catheter.

Headache pain from the Chiari malformation  in the back of my head.   

Some walking issues with my left leg.

As a distraction from the chronic pain issues this week, I enjoyed reading and  of course, Zelda.

Sunday, May 7, 2023

Several Days

For a week and a half or what feels like longer.  I've experienced:

Pain behind both eyes.

Pain from shunt valve and distal catheter followed by nausea


Ringing in my right ear

Pain on top of scalp both left and right sides.

Today (5/7) I am feeling better.

Lately, in order to distract myself, I've starting reading various books such as Bunniculamanga and anything else I can find.

And of course, the Reading Rainbow theme song has been in my head....

May is Stroke Awareness month.

Tuesday, April 11, 2023

Super Super

 The last few days have been pain free. 

Then there was today.

Sometime this afternoon I began feeling the following:

Headache pain the back of my head (from Chiari Malformation)

Nausea from my shunt adjusting itself....

Pressure and pain the forehead

Pain behind both of my eyes.

Pain on both sides of my head. 

Pain on the shunt valve and along the distal catheter down the back of my head and into some of my neck.

I took two different pain medications about a hour apart from each other starting around 12pm and then again at 2pm. 

Three hours later, I still have head pain. 

I attempted Nintendo therapy with Super Mario World (SNES) and was not very successful. Let's just say lots of game overs....I felt compelled to play of course after seeing the film recently.

Maybe it's because the weather is warmer now, satellites, drones, the moon.... whatever else is in the atmosphere that effects these programmable shunt valves many people ( of various ages ) have to deal with....

Wednesday, March 8, 2023


 This week marks nine years brain surgery free and nine years after surviving multiple brain injuries during shunt revision surgery in 2014. I needed two surgeries to fix my shunt that year. It doesn't feel like it's been that long.  I feel the shunt all the time now because of the injuries I had to my brain.  No two shunts are the same and everyone ( both children and adults ) have different experiences. 

Every year I have a cupcake or a pastry and put a candle in it to celebrate being surgery free and surviving all of this nonsense. Photo is below. The only year I didn't do this was in 2015 ( the first anniversary), as I was waiting to have surgery to repair my eyesight.  

It's windy outside today and my shunt is behaving itself, for now. 

I've been into music from some movie soundtracks such as:  Iron Eagle (1986) Hercules (1997) This song was playing in the background while I was at the store earlier this week Daft Punk. Made me think of this whole brain birthday celebration I do like every year. Not in reference to having more surgery, obviously.

 I made a film about my brain injuries to help spread awareness about brain injury and hydrocephalus it can viewed here. I'm a starving artist with a chronic illness. One of many out there living with hydrocephalus. 

Sunday, February 19, 2023

the weekend

Many people both adults and children who live with a chronic illness, unruly medical device and/or chronic pain have various symptoms they deal with daily. I'm just one of many. 

Sounds are bothering me this weekend. I had to put on noise canceling headphones because the sound of cabinet doors closing and radio was hurting my right ear. Since my injuries in 2014, I have some tone issues with that ear as it was bleeding after my injuries.  

I took pain reliever in the morning, it reduced my symptoms. They were still lingering even after taking medication. 

 The rest of the day I still had:

Pain behind both eyes.

Noises from behind my right eye. 


Pain from the distal catheter in my head and pain from moving my head from side to side.

Pressure in my forehead.

 And my left leg crossed over my right leg while I was in the kitchen. I was able to catch myself and avoided landing on the kitchen floor. 

Music helped me yesterday and a today to distract me..I'm still waiting for that Powerline Album...